boobs

i drove to the Huntington-Hill Breast Center in Pasadena with no expectations what-so-ever. backstory: there's this lump in my left breast. i thought nothing of it, since everyone's been telling me it's common in women and it's most likely just built up excess tissue. as i walked in, accompanied by Joseph, i was greeted with a young lady, possibly in her 20's, at the front desk. the waiting room was elegant and consisted of a silent waterfall and plasma screen tv's playing a sandra bullock chick flick, of course. although, the lady at the front desk was the only person in there that was within 30 years of my age group. every woman in there was in their 40's or 60's and i couldn't help but worry and think that i didn't belong there.
my name was called and i was sent to this dressing room and put on this surprisingly fancy robe, unlike the paper ones i'm use to. i put my clothes in this locker i was assigned to, saw a sign that read, "Ultrasound Waiting Room," and waited there. this was the fanciest clinic i've ever been to. although, the whole place screamed out serenity, my mind was screaming insanity. i did not want to be there.
my name was called once again, i was not in the ultrasound room. i lied on my back and the radiologist squeezed this gooey substance on my left breast. she began to examine it. she left, within 2 minutes the doctor comes in and explains my results. she told me that i may have a fibroadenoma. not cancer, ok i can breathe now. she told me that the lump is in fact growing and is fairly larger than normal for someone my age. fibroadenoma is basically a benign tumor, non cancerous.
so now i have to get a biopsy, which is performed by taking medicine to numb myself, then they make a surgical cut and they stick some sort of wire down my boob and get a sample of my breast tissue. if it's "not a good thing," then i'll have to go through surgery to take it out.
man.. this sucks so bad. i do not want another scar on my body. but i am excited to go back there. i love it there, the whole environment is so beautiful.