nothing feels as good as being skinny

from this day forward i'm not going to let anyone influence how i view my body. i've been working out all summer, and i seriously have not seen any results from it. people tell me i don't need to be working out and that i'm already skinny. how i view it is that, well everyone needs to workout and i'm not the skinny i want to be. so everyone needs to get off my jock and stop telling me that i'm crazy for wanting to be skinnier. i know how i want my body to look like, i'm not going to go anorexic or anything, i just have this body image that i want to achieve. a big reason for me not having noticeable results is that, when i eat, i eat until i get full. sometimes i eat when i'm not even hungry just to make my father happy that i'm eating. or sometimes when i go out to eat with people, i just order for the sake of eating so they don't think i'm on a diet or anything. it's so embarrassing to admit it to people, that i'm trying to cut back on the food i eat. because people just say, "dude, you're already skinny, are you crazy?" and people just feel like diets are stupid and i'm some skinny bitch who wants to keep getting skinnier. but honestly that saying, "nothing feels as good as being skinny," it's true for me. i feel amazing after workouts and disgusting after eating.